It's 3.15 in the morning and I still couldn't sleep. Am I still full as I just had 'roti telur' at 'nasi kandar' shop or is it my 'feeling' started again? I have no idea why I always think about life when I'm alone in the wee hours of the morning. Maybe that helps me to grow stronger. Who knows? Out of a sudden, I thought of my friends. All of us i.e. my friends and I have come a long way in our JPA application. The only thing now is to wait for the final result to be released on the 3rd week of May. Everything happened so fast and swiftly. I could just tell myself, let bygone be bygone. There is a slim chance of getting the scholarship, I would say. I wonder why Chung Ling only have 3 students who scored straight A1 while other schools (not to mention) have a whole bunch of them. Getting the scholarship or not is another issue. The most important issue is that I live happily and enjoy my life!
Of course, going to overseas might seems to be a very good opportunity. However, will you be 100% satisfied with your life there? Try to think, where are we going to find 'nasi kandar' stalls everywhere in other countries? Will we be celebrating Chinese New Year abroad? Where can we find food stalls by the roadside? Where are we going to find a 'mamak' stall where we can sit down together and watch football match all the way through the night? How about the perception of the nationals of other countries on foreigners like us? But of course, there will be a lot of discoveries overseas that will be very enticing. But can we accept it? Are you ready for a Friday night parties with friends in a club? So, there's its pros and cons I would say. Sorry if it's sounds too pessimistic. haha. I'm just trying to be realistic.
I have never felt so happy and satisfied before until I'm at PAH. Meet a lot of caring friends there. Thank you Amurdha, Freda, Rose Marie, Roslind, Christie, Juwel, Jernih, Bee Bee and Su Ming. All of them are so generous and welcoming. Last but not least, Ozawa Mikiyo from Tokyo. She has been living in Penang for more than 3 years and has now gone back to her home country. I'm still waiting for her reply. Although I have only met her for about one month, this friendship bond has been formed so rigidly. It's really enjoyable to have many friends no matter local or abroad that you could think of when you are lonely. It makes you feel better.
Here goes the song I'm listening to. It's 'How to Save a Life' by The Fray:
" Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend.
Somewhere along in the bitterness,
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known, how to save a life. "
Whenever you go, friends will still be friends.
